nyways i havent been a proper state of mind lately. so much to think about as if all mashed up in a bowl of stew. so many things was in my head from financial woes to house to friendships to relationships.
it did occur to me i was once flying high. i was flying blindly without looking at the real perspective. i was walking on eggshells but not knowing how painful it is. basically i was just moving forward but little did i know the past; so much; somewhat always had the huge impact turning us to who we are right now.
i begin to stare at my own reflection at the mirror. suddenly so many thoughts starting to creep through my mind i think i went crazy. or maybe pathetic.. i begin to dissect each thing on its own. seeing from a new point of view makes me either more nervous; more insane? or more determined.
i know i can be selfish sometimes. which i seldom realizes them until i was too late. and breaking a past series of change is not that simple either.
did we ever think we can just move on and bury the past? did we really moved on just to keep our egos checked; or did we really just forget who we really are until someone slapped us in the face?
And so how do we moved on from all these mixed feelings? how did we constantly remind ourselves to be positive when the dark clouds keep haunting? go figure?
well-- i guess the only thing we gotta do is keep focusing on the future. focus on the good things our future can offer us; perhaps - it will gets us away from the negativity limitations.
true;; a different point of view may teach us a new thing or two; a new way to look at ; a new kind character to be; but it will always be pointless if we keep going back in circles. learn to break that chain.
learn to break the pattern. focus on future. which is the only thing that can keeps us sane & away from our past...
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