today....

Today im feelin much better than i was during the yesterdays... somehow im so ever grateful that god is on my side & the pain slowly subsides... at least im feeling less hurtful than before & more calmer than the way things are. alhamd...

btw i learned alot these past few days...
 

i learned that:

• i need to keep my mouth shut when comes to marital woes & problems. cos too much talking to so many parties can hurt me more and too many opinions can cause further conflict & resentments (due to the incoming views...)
• I need to have more faith in myself, in my marriage & in my partner. nobody entered into a marriage contract to play the part for doom to fail. noone loves sad endings. 
• no matter what; (if possible) divorce is not a solution. (unless he crossed the line okays)
• We're all wired differently &; our thinking very much varies. doesn't mean if we are all connected; related or in-sync we think the same. bottom line we are very much different that each other. start learning to accept each others reasons & views. we can always hear them but dont listen to all. only accept the good ones.
• Trust in our own instinct. if we cant listen to ourselves then how can we listen to others? learn to believe in faith & in fate. 
• Everything happens for a reason. God knows what's best for us.
• Positive Speaking works better. Whenever things goes down; keep a positive speaking to maintain positive thinking.
• Never undermine a person's intention or reason. everyone has their reasons. and including you for all the decisions u have made.
• Learn to live life the best for you & your loved ones. Live life to fullest & no turning back.
• Believe life as we make. Cos believe makes a dream & dreams makes a reality. the power of mind.
• Ever afters are for those who believe. Question is; do we believe in them?
• We dictate who we wana keep in our lives; who we wana be & who we wana learn from.
• Never let anyone decide about who we are; who we were & who we gona be. (which is difficult) Cos in the end of the day; its us living our life. not you; not her; not him; not them not everyone else.
• Who we are yesterday are just a person who partly makes who we are today. But its who we are today that creates our better future.  maybe some of us chose to remain the same but not many of us want to. Change is  "an individual thing".
• Whenever we lose side track; we go back to our main purpose. we go back at one.
• Everything will be okay when we believe it will. So "believe".
• Happiness is a state of mind. And so is misery. So choose wisely.

and so thats all my words of wisdom for now. 

I know ive over ranting about things i shouldnt have here (esp when comes to private matters.), i suppose i need to learn to keep matters close to prevent ugly.

So this is my lesson this week. cos we're all humans we live to learn.