Hey... i dont really actually pour my heart out in my public blogs... but there comes a time when i realize some thoughts shouldn't hurt either... and perhaps it should mark a lesson to some of us especially me....when comes to matters of the heart...
In life we are all known as many many faces to many many people.. some of us has more faces to others and some has less... some are good at hiding who we really are while some are just plainly not...cos some knows they live for the truth... and to those who keep hiding in their many many faces... its not a wrong thing... i suppose thats the way we survive in this world.. cos not many of those out there are careful with our feelings, vulnerability when exposed to one...
but that doesn't mean we can shut of the world and pretend they mean nothing to us... or to those who actually meant something to us... cos the truth is; we all love to have our people with us... no matter where we are... whether it was a few or many... or strictly family or lovers...
when comes to matters of the heart; like any other beings out there... i have many many faces...to those who knew me they would agree.... and some would disagree... and some can easily point out my version of faces.... and some just cant.... sigh... example faces some would think maybe im ego... some would think i just don't care.... maybe some would see me as scared of being hurt (hmm who doesnt?) maybe some would see me as being cautious when laying out my heart out there... (i guess most of us are....) and some actually have no idea at all of any of those....
so some called me fickle... some called me indecisive... some called me stuck in the phantom zone... some said im too comfortable... and some who knew nothing would think im just lost in this lovers world... haha... see? so many judgments and so lil time??
but that doesn't mean i would succumb to any of it or being whatever they judge me to be... like any other beings; i had to learn things the hard way too... and i had to learn the true meaning of love & sacrifices and also the truth bout friendships.... and honestly each grew more wisdom in me... and perhaps more version of faces??haha
sure ive come across similar faces people to me at times... some maintain their faces with me, some showed me their vulnerability... some were honest and some weren't... some thought they hid it well with me.. some just trusted me with their secrets... some knew how to play the many faces game... some thought they could just get away.. and some were just pretending so for their own personal reasons....i supposed thats life.. cos not everyone thinks like us... cos we're all unique and we have so many judgment on things... and those faces too has high expectation on others... perhaps its true we are what we judge the world to be...
i don't blame anybody for what happened in their lives... i don't blame anyone for being so many faces to the world.... i guess for everything was meant to turn out the way it supposed to be.. cos i believe in fate... and its fated the way it is... And i know deep down no matter where i go; this is the road each of us were meant to take.. whether we like it or not... whether we want or not....all of us,.. each of us has our own agenda...on this world.... whether its a dream to chase... a place to be belong to... a place to go to... a place to follow.... a place to live our lives as we're meant to.... and honestly none of us want to be left behind... and so thats the truth..
even in the odd circumstances... between friendships and truth... between love and realities... between dreams and superficiality.... i know there's a reason why we all are brought here.... i know there's a perfect reason why we chose that way and why we didn't... there's a reason why some of us left and why some of us still facing them... a reason why some of us still keep thinking of them and why some of us just want to bury them deep...
perhaps only in our hearts would know the truth... maybe thats the way it is...
whether we like it or not. it hurts us and makes us won der why we put up so much with it at the first place if we getting hurt anyway?.. but in the end if we just keep on believing on faith and believing the pain will just go away... maybe there is happy ever after awaiting for us in the end of the day.... i know for sure; believe is what we make....and im happy to say all these without my many many faces.... are you?
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