a side

I actually thought i knew that person... when somehow; suddenly i realised ive just seen a side of them ive never seen before...

have u ever seen a side of someone you never thought they would have? like

dr. jekyll & mr hyde?

have u ever felt shocked or horror of their persona character that you never knew how unpretty that side ever was?


well lets just say we human got so many faces to wear when comes to certain people; certain times & certain moments. and if we are discreet; not so many can predict & see our different faces & comprehend our own masks...

but honestly; the bitter part comes when one recognises the other's facade.. and worst.. to learn the untruth about them when one hopes for such honesty.. and to accept such imperfection when one simply cant take that side..

i always thought if you're such a true believer; someday truth will prevail. i was a strong believer. i value honesty & truthfulness; i despise fake; lies & coverups. for a moment; i cant seem to understand why one would hide & bury such truth. i dont understand what was the beauty of making a fool of others on top of all the lies & deceit. yes i just can't seem to understand. maybe you should enlighten me.

truth is; it took me years to learn my lesson on truth & lies. until at certain point; i become accustomed to it & made it ok when it was not ok. the wrongs were made right; the untruth were made truth. suddenly there's not such things as valuable honesty anymore.

well maybe some wouldnt understand why i picked a side. maybe some did. maybe some learning to care on which part of side i actually believed in. maybe its all in the mind really; or perhaps an illusion we make on truth & lies..

but now im beginning to see that ugly side of truth. the hideous side of one's soul covered with lies & full of sh*t. its painful to see how deceived we get & how betrayed we felt when someone mattered to us hid a real truth in front of us. it felt terrible and awkward. very.

i know im just human. partly i did have those faces like anyone elses but i know i am trying to be as civil as i could & living life as honest as i could. i believe in virtue. in realness & real life,
& unlike those idiots; i believe in truthful & in justice. in karma.

so screw what they wana say.. cos i believe we all have equal rights to know the truth. the reasonableness of truth.. and the real truth honesty about how others treat us with respect. cos truth is;.. the more lies are told....the more hurt are felt... the more trust will be violated...
and no.. it aint good for us or to our closed ones in the long run.. serious!!

take it from a person who've been told too many lies too many times as your guide.:)