Today i had the biggest revelation since yesterdays.. finally ive admit that i have stayed in this nutshell for too long; and holding on for something i should have let go. and to be honest; when i looked at the time that passes me by; i just realize... months had pass me by...and i should learn to close the chapter of this book.
maybe at times i was emotional. maybe at certain times i was hanging to the past.
then again; i was just this person; trying to learn her mistakes and be this better person.
i knew i couldn't live with the girl i used to be. i knew i had to change. i knew i had to invent the change.
so i did. and i worked so hard to close the chapter and force it to stop haunting me and killing my dreams. cos i knew i was meant for something more. i was meant for something big; that was the initial reason why i dragged my foot out of there.
maybe to some individuals; i left with questions and unanswered statements; but knowing that i always believe that time will mend it all... despite anything; despite everything.
well 7 months had passed. and in a way i'm glad things were meant to be the way they are.
i guess ive managed to get through the hiccups and agony of those days and finally am smiling as the sun shining above me... :)
im glad to understand the real me and deal with myself before anything else. for once; i see things beyond my imagination and feel things beyond my own limits... its good lesson for me.
and now im happy to laugh and smile the way i want to; and to live my life the way ive wanted.
and so here i am; finally ready and finally certain; im closing this old chapter of mine and this book once and for all. for real.
and yes. no turning back.
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