c.h.a.n.g.e

went to the hosp today tovisit my grdpa whom is bedridden due to dehydration & lungs infection.
some of my family members were there.. and we just sat there for few hours chatting away and temaning him while waiting for de doc...

in that moment, i just realise that time is travelling too fast...

realise that its almost mid oct 2006... it almost has been a year since i got back. plenty things have changed. many people has changed too.

and people along the way ive met; some appeared and some parted to their own ways. and so do i..

yes. its true 2006 is almost done and another year gone by without any of us realising it. and the scarry part is, this year seems to fly pass us as if they chasing another part of god's plan..

as i watch my grdfolks across the hosp room, i cant help wondering what would it be to be live life 7decades or more and see the evolving life of the world? how much change has it been since then? how has life changed to treat us better? how have we changed in life to make it better?

when we speak about changes? are we changing or is the world changing and forcing us to change? or was it circumstances had us changed?
in this changing universe i've always had this quote someone-wise telling me ringing in my ears..."the only constant thing in life is change" which is true. change is constant and its unevitable..

but how much do we put in to change? how much can a person change in this lifetime? how much change to we need to get the better changing effect?

ha... enough of the word change. its a metaphor we explain one one's behaviour for acting contradictory to their previous act. and change come in many ways - the good, the bad, the forced-one, the willingess for the better, for-all-sake and the denial change.

im sure everyone has its phase of change. im sure each phase has taught us a lesson in life. and thats one thing i always respect about change. it is the impact of one....

maybe i change. maybe i didnt in the eyes of theirs. but i know deep down i did just like everybody else. just like everyone, i did changed forcefully, willingly, for the better and also in-denial- in the phases of change.

the question is not what change did i went through, or how, it was deeper way beyond hows and whys, its more about the after-changing effects.
did i managed to turnaround my life? did i managed to change for the better? did changes changed my life and the way it looked for me?.. did yours changed your life too?

perhaps yes. only it is i who see the changes in my eyes. just like everyone else see their own changes in their eyes......